neunzehn nuenundnuenzig

It's the mere sensation of being the first one that you see
When morning opens up the skies
You see me when daylight opens up your eyes

note to self

jemand anders

It amazes me how much I want you
We seem to fall out every time
And again when I feel that we're closing in
You say "Look I really can't pull this off, not this time."

What's with all these people?
Who are they?
What do they want?
I don't carry drugs in my pocket
Though you said it would bring us closer
I don't think you meant to each other
But to something else
Someone else

ghosts

You find things about yourself that you will soon forget.
Counting old friends left behind a jaded mind to go with it.
Hatred flowing through your veins but jealousy is all you feel.
Mistaken from the start, always wrong that never ends.
You can never be in love until you learn to be alone.
You will never miss those heavy eyes until you're left with none.
You can never achieve true happiness until you hang your head

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well that right there is called a beautiful moment.

l i f e

you shut your eyes and pray for peace
think i’m not here this isn’t me
this isn’t something i would do
i know the complicated truth
a big top tent a firey sword
i make a mask of lions roar
but they’re not real and never were
and soon she won’t be real either
this is the life you went and earned
because you never fucking learn
you could use up all of your years
fixing the mess you make in here

amishoez

If you say so
I’ll leave home, I’ll leave home
Like the dead that walk before me therein
I can’t believe that you ignore me, such a shame
I didn’t come here to try to hurt you, you hurt me
I’ll never sit back and say ‘that’ll do,’ I’m afraid.